But all I have, these days, is time. And still I get to the end of the day and remember all the things I was supposed to do. Like call Citizens Advice, for example. Instead I watched the Minnesota Vikings lose to the New York Jets and Atlanta Braves get swept by San Francisco Giants, all the while muttering to myself about how cold my living room was, and how much pain I was in, and the relationship between the cold and my pain levels.
Right now I should be sleeping. I'm not, as you can see. Why am I not sleeping? The same reason I was up late on Friday. Why, football, of course. Football is the reason I didn't take my amitriptyline on time on Friday (I had folk over to watch the Scotland game and was distracted when my pill alarm went off) and football is the reason I still haven't taken my amitriptyline tonight ( I was in the Captain's Rest, watching the other Scotland game, when my pill alarm went off). I'm supposed to take my pills with me if I'm going to be out past 9pm (pill alarm time), but I rarely remember.
A proper routine and a regular sleep pattern goes a long way towards making living with FM manageable. Unfortunately, and fairly predictably, forgetfulness is a big part of the problem. I think it's almost certainly impossible to have a chronic condition and not feel a bit sorry for yourself from time to time, but I have to admit, having a condition that lists "fibrofog" amongst it's symptoms partly makes up for it.
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